Well hello you!!
I don’t know where to start…life has thrown a few curve balls at you, hasn’t it? 😊 I want to tell you something you probably won’t realise until you are where I am. Life is gonna get long and dreary but I want you to keep at it like you are right now. You will feel dejected and sad and there’ll be moments where you’ll really feel like ending things. Your morale will be at its lowest low and you will question your entire existence. But things will get better and you will meet people along the way who will come into your life to help you, support you, change you and be there for you.
You will encounter moments of realisations and awareness that you haven’t just yet. Some of these people will love you, some will anger you, some will leave you and some will misunderstand you. I’m not gonna lie, you will get hurt. Sometimes heartbroken but you will live. And you will learn from these pains. You will learn some cruel lessons which you’ll struggle understanding why you had to learn them in the first place.
If you have to change one thing about this journey then change this: do not resist the tide, do not fight it, do not struggle with it. If something is meaning to leave your life let it go with grace. If something is coming, accept it lovingly. Don’t fight the course of life. Don’t dwell in the pain and negatives you will encounter in your journey for that too will pass and be a snippet from the past that will hardly cross your mind in a few years from now. Relish the time and moments you have with your friends now because some will leave your life and not come back. Enjoy those late night calls, enjoy those random coffee dates, enjoy that amazing feeling of being a bff to your bestie. Remind yourself how grateful you are for having the family and support system you have in your present moment. Remind yourself that you are lucky to be alive and kicking and doing things on your own.
You will have to go through a phase where physically you’ll feel inadequate and a failure but those will serve as deep lessons which will teach you about your inner strength. You will feel sad and handicapped and incapable of doing anything but you will persevere. In those temporary moments of sadness remind yourself of your inner strength and your purpose. At times you will question why you and compare yourself with everyone else who is better than you. You will question why they have a better life. My dear..I’m 5 years wiser and I’m rapidly realising how irrelevant all that comparing was. What a big waste of time! 10 years from now you’ll be thankful if you even have the desire to read a letter to yourself! So please don’t bother comparing yourself with anyone. Hone your skills and love what you do! Spend all your free time doing the things that makes your spirit happy, no matter what that is. Don’t stress and cry less my dear..all that crying and stressing will eventually catch up and stare you right in the face. And I mean literally! You will inevitably come to accept that stressing is like karma for your facial beauty. It truly ages you!
Enjoy the life you have and eat healthy. Love fully and whole heartedly. Don’t close your doors on love. You will meet people who will make you feel things you will want to avoid feeling but dont avoid it. Don’t restrain yourself from giving in. These experiences will be precious moments you will cherish your whole life. Even though the person will no longer participate in your life, those moments will linger on and become tender memories you will like keeping forever.
5 years from now you will be a woman who will finally learn to love herself with empathy and admiration. She will bask in the femininity and strength of being a woman who has bravely fought her battles. 5 years will make you a fighter! And you will fight and conquer pebbles, stones …sometimes large rocks along the way. Every experience will be a special one that will teach you about you . Lastly always remember that loving yourself first will never go out of style! 😉
P.s. Do me a favour and don’t ever make the mistake of getting a silly haircut for your birthday!!
Your elder self.